I don’t get it

What do you do when you have all this pent up emotion that you don't know what to do with? I'm so sad and so angry all the time anymore and I just can't seem to get my bearings underneath of me these last couple of weeks. I legit feel like I'm losing my mind …

I quit.

I quit. I fucking quit. I can't do recovery. It's just made me fat. I haven't been this fat for this long ever and I just fucking quit. I genuinely feel like recovery is stupid and its' only point is to make you fat. My treatment team says to trust the process, it's just water …