Once Upon a Week..

So I meet with Danielle and Jodie today- Jodie is starting to phase me out with our meetings because I'm doing really well keeping up with my meal plan and not bingeing; she's still not happy with my purging once a week, but says it's going to take time to completely get over all of …

Ugh, Argh, Ahh!!!

I'm not really too sure what to say right now despite my surplus of emotions and feelings.. I just got out of my chemistry tests about an hour ago and whoa buddy! I FUCKED THOSE BAD BOYS UP!! Part of me is starting to believe what my mom had told me last night. she reminded …

Epitaph Airbrushed With Death..

Yesterday, well Wednesday, I meet back up with Danielle for the first time in about 3 weeks since my last appointment with her. Nothing was really different about this meeting, but the one thing that she really pushed me on was my body image. She pulled out the drawing that I did on my own, …

Life, it is What it is..

I went to the gym today and ran for the first time again in about 2 1/2 weeks, and ohhh buddy, let me tell you! I could barely run one mile, that's right, ONE MILE.. But  I did my best and then I got off and caught my breathe, ran another lap, walked one, and …

All Good Stuff…

So I've been really busy all week with school and work as usual, but something was different from any other week.. It's a good thing, and for once I can say I really have made a lot of progress and am SUPER proud of myself. I kept thinking in the back of my head that …

Ramblings..

So I'm not really sure what to say tonight,  I guess I'm just at a loss for words once again, big surprise, right? lol But I've been thinking some these last few days about how I said I hated my dad. Well, I really don't hate him, I love him, I just hate how he …

Testing, One, Two, Three.. Testing, One, Two, Three..

Okay so things are starting to improve at home once again, mainly due to the fact that I stay busy and am really not home all that much, but a big factor has to do with me not internalizing my family's problems like I was doing there for a little  while again. When my parents …

DON’T EVEN GO THERE!!

Can I just say one thing, just one thing? DON'T EVEN FUCKIG GO THERE!!! UGGGHHHH!!!! GOD!!! My dad ALWAYS knows how to make his feelings about me known! I just want to remind him of things and throw them back in his face SO bad right now it's not even right! UUUGGGHHH I'm too pissed …

A More Beautiful You..

Okay, so I've been reading through some people's blogs today while I'm work, and I couldn't help but realize that some of the people that I talk to on a more regular basis are really struggling lately, and I'm not going to lie, it makes me sad.. But I can't sit here and be a …

Murphy’s Law.. It Bites You in the Ass EVERYTIME!!

Murphy's Law. Everything that can happen will happen... Now what do I mean by this? Well, let me just tell you about my day today.. First I wake up SUPER late, about an hour and a half later than I normally do. I haven't done laundry in almost two weeks, so all my clothes that …