I want to pick up the phone and say I miss you, but I don't know how to tell him. I'm afraid to call him and tell him how I really feel because what if that's not how I truly feel? I mean what if it's the idea I'm more in love with than Hank …

My life feels as if it's crumbling down on me. Everything that has happened in this past year has honestly really gotten to me this week and breaking up with Hank has been my breaking point. I did a pretty brave thing Friday, at least I think it's brave, I went back into the clinic …

I wish I knew how to put words to how I feel tonight.

Everything Reminds Me of You…

Something's seriously gotta give. I can't take another night of waking up after only sleeping a few hours only to be thinking of Hank. My heart is so broken and so torn over this whole break up and how things turned out; I just don't feel like I have the strength to deal with it …

It’s All Just Fine.

Everything's just fine. It's always just fine. Life's just fine. I'm not fine tho and my life's not fine. My life's been turned upside down and taken away, and I'm left with God's consequences of 'his actions' that I can't seem to find the lessons to. I can't do this anymore. This accident has taken just about everything …

I don't know if I made a mistake by leaving Hank or what. My mind tells me no while my heart screams yes. Last night he sent me a text saying, "hope you're happy. sorry I cared." And when I got home I sent him a message over facebook telling him we're done. Stop trying …