I need your help please??

So my therapist says I need to go back this week rather than being done next week because I have this mentality that 150lbs is 2/3 of the way to 200lbs. Don't get me wrong because I really do think it is, but technically it's 3/4 of the way- that's besides the point though..... My …

Too Much H20. UGH!

This is not going to be a good day. I drank WAY TOO much fluids yesterday, now I'm bloated, and the scale went up like 7lbs since LAST FUCKING NIGHT! FML I'm about to say fuck EVERYTHING, but I can't, nit if I even want to finish therapy this month-fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!

FUUUUUCK!

One word. FUUUUUUCK! I told Danielle the truth today about me having a relapse, and well she didn't take too kindly to it. She pushed me in ways she's never pushed me before, I mean being that I was done with therapy and I was only going in for recovery relapse prevention and all, I …

WTF!!!

I hardly eat anything ALL week and my pants STILL don't fucking fit! UGH! I'm SO FRUSTRATED right now!! Someone just kill me please?? ugh! And I'm hungry and I want to eat, but I don't want to eat. I hate being fucking fat!

Wasting Time Before Lab…

I'm kind of disgusted with myself, yet I'm proud of myself at the same time... I haven't ate anything today but a cereal bar, which was only 190 calories and an energy drink being that I stayed up  FOREVER last night. So add another 110 calories. It's about a quarter till 5pm and my total …

Secrets Got Me Here and Secrets Will Keep Me Here…

So after a little talking to by my boss, Dana, I'm not sure if you all remember that she helped me when my parents kicked me out last year, but anyways I got a reprimand from her.. At work my other boss had asked me to pull up a form for out student's snack that …

UGH!

I ate an apple with 8oz of soy milk and then a salad(2c lettece, 1/4cmixed beans, and two bread sticks).... I've been a bitch since and I almost purged bc I felt like I binged... ANNNNNNND.... I almost punched  my roommate in the face when she came in today bc she woke me up after …

Back From Wonderland??

Okay so maybe I was being a little irrational the last couple of days, heck maybe the entire week... You can call me crazy, call me irrational, or whatever else you want to call me because it could be true, but if there's one thing you cannot call me it's a quiter. I'm a fighter …

7:32am

I feel like I'm in a fat suit- I want to unzip it and take it off....   On a side note: It's SO not right to be up this early, I woke up at 5:30 to get ready for work and lab today- I have 4 participants I get to run today, I'm super …

That’s It, I’m DONE With This!

***Disclaimer*** Don't bother reading this if you don't want to be triggered or if you're easily triggered... I can't take this feeling anymore and I just need to get it out because I can't be honest with anyone about how I really feel. Especially since I finish treatment on the 24th this month...    Starting …