Let Your Tears Fall

Piece by piece I've put myself together. One foot in front of the other I've managed to get where I'm at today. Today has been the first day in over a week that I took a step back and really saw how far I fell down this time around. The memories are still too much, …

Admittance Is A Funny Thing

It's hard to admit when someone you love has wronged you, taken advantage of, and simply put; hurt you. This last week or two I've been running from my past. I've been in denial of how much pain my dad really caused me. I've been blaming myself and placing the guilt and shame on me, …

All I Can Say Is I’m Trying

I'm at a loss for words to even begin how these last few days have been. To sum it up in one sentence though, I've gone off the deep end. Talking about the trauma I had as a child is harder than I had anticipated it to be. Sure I knew it would be hard, …

I’m Really Struggling Today

In a world full of chaos and confusion how do you separate the crazy from the sane? How do you make heads or tails of something that has happened while still maintaining your composure and keeping things together? These last couple of days I feel like I've lost my damn mind. My thoughts are crazy, …

I’m Stronger Than I Feel

It's 11:30 in the evening and I just got home from a very long day that started at 5am. I'm tired, blah, and I just want to binge. I ended up leaving work a tad early today only to come home and binge/purge. I'm annoyed at myself for doing so and all I want to …

Fall Down 8 Times Get Back Up 9

I've had a long day today and it's still not over. As I was trying to catch up on work notes my work computer decided to do all it's updates, conviently at 12:50am... Being sick most of last week really put me behind and I've had little to no motivation to even get caught up …

I’m Where I Need To Be

Have you ever just felt so disgusted with yourself that it was hard to do anything? Hard to go out in public because nothing you own fits you the right way? I'm right there this last week and as hard as I try to not to give into those thoughts and feelings, well, I have. …

Two Cats and A Dog

Valentines Day has a funny way of reminding you just how single you are and maybe just how much you wish you and your ex never broke up in the first place; which gives you the "perfect" idea of I'm adopting a puppy! Even though you already have two cats... No, I didn't adopt a …