New Creation?

As I've been super busy these last couple of weeks, I've been thinking little and just going through the motions of the life I've created for myself. But I've been doing a lot of thinking again recently about where I'm at right now in life, and well, it's not that bad of a spot, even …

I’m DONE..

One phrase- I'm done! I'm done being obese and I'm done with food.. I've binged for the last three four days in a row now, and I'm SO DDDOONNNEEE!!!!! I'm going to court tomorrow, paying my flippin ticket, and then I'm going to go to the YMCA and work out before I have to go …

Updates :)

Okay so Tuesday, I had both my nutrtion appointment and therapy appointment, neither of which went very well. Jodie, my nutrtionist thinks I need to go into a clinic for the summer since I still can't seem to go one week without binging and purging in one form or another. When I told her she …

Weirdness..

I was in one of my last classes yesterday, it was my adolescents class and the last topic we had too talk about was eating disorders. We started the topic durring our wednesday class, but didn't really get into it until yesterday, and well, like many you you probably would have, I perked up.. When my instructor defined a serious …

AHH!! UGGHH!!! FFFUUCCKKK!!!

Okay, well I blew it today.. I fucking binged on well, a lot of food.. I got overwhelmed with life, school, and work, started to cry, then stopped -> so apparently the logical answer was to go and stuff my face full of food.. Okay, right Laura.. I'm so frusterated, I'm gaining weight, I'm fat. …

Today..

Today I will work a little harder- try a little more. I will live for recovery and make it my goal. I'm not going to give up the fight that I keep fighting Instead, I'll fight it a little smarter and go a little farther..   Today is the day I will promise to love …

The Way She Feels

If only time could heal all wounds The hearts of the broken wouldn't fester into cold lifeless pits. They would one by one stand up and say today is the day I will live Today is the day I will love..     The bubble bursts as she fights with her mom Hollering and screaming …

I’m Okay Today..

Today I'm okay Today I choose to wake up and say I love me for me I fought with myself for a good while Said I wasn't going to eat I was going to do my own thing But I played devil's advocate instead..   The devil said I was fat, ugly, and grotesque  The …

:ALL Alone In The Way She Feels:   She puts on a pretty little smile for all to see And yet the tears continue flow within.. No one even knows, No one even suspects, No one has a clue as to how she feels..   She wants to be free She wants to be more …

Is It Okay To Be Weak?

I'm not really sure what to say for once, I'm at a lose of words and yet I have SO many thoughts swirling around in my head.. To be honest, I really haven't had much to say lately only because I don't know what to say, so I've been writing poems instead of actually writing..  …